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In June 2024, I created an altar space to attract romance into my life based on Feng Shui principles. Nearly a year after my divorce, I felt emotionally strong and healed. Life and business were going well, and I recognized that I was ready to invite a romantic partner into my life.
I had no idea the roller coaster of healing that would unfold over the next 7 months. Core wounds raged. Insecurities spilled into every area of my life. I became the watered down version of who I am. I nearly lost myself.
My Guides pushed the accelerator to nudge their agenda of a lesson upon me. As I continued to compromise my essence to appease my lover (I actually despise that term now but he refused to have a title for our relationship to escape commitment), my “Inner Teen” and “Inner Mom” created such cognitive dissonance that I began to experience primal panic. My heart raced every time I put my head on my pillow to sleep and the constant anxiety was overwhelming.
My personal self-care practices were nearly absent from my life since I was traveling extensively with my lover and they seemed to make him uncomfortable. I hid all aspects of me that had a spiritual flavor.
At this point I’m afraid you’re thinking, “WTF Christine?!”
I forgot my value. I tried to hide who I was. My core wounds of being unlovable and too much were being mirrored to me in every experience. And I wasn’t being totally honest with those in my world. When I did, they gently reminded me I deserved better. It felt like they were cracking me open to a truth I wasn’t ready to hear yet.
When my lover cheated on me on Solstice I was done. I was ready to walk. But my guides said “Not yet, you haven’t learned the core lesson yet.” Well shit! They showed me visions to keep me in it. Talk about tough love.
So I took one last adventure with him. And thank the goddess I was in Houston, TX offering workshops at Lighthouse Reiki when Misty Verlinden talked some sense into me.
She could see exactly what was going on. That my “Inner Teen” loved the experience, the drama, the parties, the wildness that my lover offered, whereas my “Inner Mom” wanted emotional connection and depth, as well as respect. They were constantly fighting inside my head. Misty suggested that I allow them to make an agreement for this last trip: to give the reins to my Inner Teen to allow her to fully experience all that she missed out on in her 20’s as I was married at 23 and had a baby at 24.
I flew to Cancun with just that intention. I haven’t had a drink in years and yet I allowed my party girl to come out. I went wild. And even then, I had women pull me aside and remind me of what a soulmate actually looks like.
The Inner Teen got exactly what she needed. After days of partying, she was more than satisfied. I made one last attempt at setting boundaries and compromise from my Inner Mom to make this relationship work. “Let’s give it one more go, we can have a lot of fun together”, I thought.
I know my spirit guides were probably thinking… “Come on Christine! Learn the lesson and let’s get on with it!”
It didn’t take more than a few days back home, a few texts of me breaking his “rules” that I wasn’t allowed to have an emotional process unless it was on his agenda and discussed face-to-face only that it finally clicked.
I started letting in support. Isabel and Shantel both brought forward their gifts in the way of coaching and readings. A new mentor shared her Divine Feminine wisdom with me. I went to a Master NLP coach for a harmonic egg session and she helped me understand the different voices and personalities that were all arguing in my head. She asked, “Where’s your internal Queen? What does she want?”
“She wants a fucking King!” My Queen (aka Higher Self) remembered who she was, took the throne, told everyone to shut the fuck up inside my head, and came to the conclusion that I love myself more. I love myself more than the cognitive dissonance. I love myself more than to compromise my values and beliefs. I love myself more than my lover.
In an instant it was done. And I embarked on a 21 day Radical Self-Love Journey to re-member who I am and to clear out any energy that needed to be released.
My 21 Days of Radical Self Love was filled with numerous self-love practices including:
❤️ Yoni Steams
❤️ Yoni Yoga
❤️ Chakra Spinning
❤️ Cord Cutting Ceremonies
❤️ Egg Cleanses
❤️ Home Energy Cleanses
❤️ Money Dates
❤️ Chakra Healing Altars
❤️ Emotional Release Ceremony
❤️ Divine Feminine / Masculine Date Nights
❤️ Reiki Sessions
❤️ Shamanic Journeys
❤️ Dancing
❤️ And so much more!!
I intentionally wanted to heal my womb. Not that she had endured abuse, but rather I wanted to clear the seeds that he planted there. For women, the womb receives the essence and unprocessed emotions of the partner. I needed to release and alchemize my womb so it could return to its true state as my GPS system in the world.
Many of the practices above were for that purpose specifically. Others were to profoundly heal the emotional hurts, break patterns, release any attachments. I fully release and forgive the situation so I can be whole and love all of me.
I believe that you attract to the level in which you are already healed. This experience revealed all the angles in which I didn’t love myself until I could. And I do. I love myself. Never again will I negotiate who I am for the benefit of another. A King, the beloved, would never ask me to compromise my worth, values, or self-esteem. (Has he been witnessing all of this and patiently waiting for me to heal and open my heart to him? Did he just hear his spiritual cue and enter the throne room? You’ll have to keep watching and listening for more.)
If you are reading this, and you are not completely in-love with yourself and you can recognize that in your relationships, it’s time for a 21 Day Radical Self Love Journey!
I am offering 5 spots for “Say YES to Radical Self Love”! This includes 3x 90 minute coaching sessions to develop your personalized self-love strategy with regular accountability throughout the 21 days for just $888!
This is the best Valentine’s Day present you can give to yourself!
Say YES to Self-Love today!
Ecstatically Yours,
Christine Renee
Moon Rising Visionary
Are you ready to dive deeply into self love, working with me over 21 days to engage with powerful spiritual techniques, coaching tools, energy work, and more to reclaim your power, recognize your worth, and love yourself in all the ways you haven’t yet?
I am offering 5 spots for “Say YES to Radical Self Love”! This includes 3x 90 minute coaching sessions to develop your personalized self-love strategy with regular accountability throughout the 21 days for just $888!
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