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On Valentine’s Day I entered the dance floor in a red sassy dress for a night of ecstatic dancing in Delray, FL. My skin felt sun kissed from the day before, my beloved ran his hand down my bare back which sent a wave of pleasure through my body. I had flown into South Florida just a few days prior to explore a new possibility for my heart.
He had witnessed the beginning to the end of my previous relationship. Many times he was my confidant throughout, leaving me whispers of my deservingness of better. We had been friends for just about a year as I attended his Chakra Dance classes and met up for friendly coffee dates regularly. We had known each other for many years, in the same spiritual circles.
Over the last year, he began to know me in intimate ways through our friendship. We didn’t catch romantic feelings for each other until I was nearing the end of the relationship I was already in, lost in the dissonance of it. As soon as it was clear I was done with one relationship, I stepped intentionally into 21-days of Radical Self Love. I took the term “Radical” seriously. I was deep in the process for me, for my healing, and yet knew there was an underlying current of preparation. My heart was preparing for another while also healing and releasing.
My dance partner honored my request for 21 days of Self-Love and followed my lead on how comfortable I was with exploring this new relationship while in my self-healing container. I knew this relationship was something I wanted to open my heart to. We had a few innocent date nights before I decided to join him in Florida for 10 days. He was honest and open with his feelings, could easily create sacred conversations, and witnessed me without judgement and honored my processes. I wanted the depth that he could offer.
With my 21 days of Self-Love ending, with my mind clear and my nervous system regulated, I jumped on an airplane. I dared to hope, and I knew it was a risk I was willing to take. I trusted my heart and him. I knew I would come home solidly in a beautiful romantic relationship or a deeper friendship. Nothing else.
Within the first 24 hours, deep into eye gazing, he asked me to be his girlfriend. My heart lit up and I felt a trusting calmness. I said yes.
The trip was planned over Valentine’s Day and we’d found an ecstatic dance to attend. Back in Bozeman, these are rare occurrences, a free form sober dance party. We both love dance, both alcohol free (my party girl phase was very much done after Cancun, read more from the previous blog). As with many ecstatic dances, we created a circle, hands on heart to set our Valentine’s Day dance intentions. Standing next to my new boyfriend, I set the intention to “deepen my love”.
The DJ began playing electrifying beats and we wove in a harmonious and contagious rhythm of dancing, sometimes with each other and sometimes in ecstatic solo dancing. My body shimmered with sweat and the vigorous dancing continued and my heart expanded. At the end of the night we created a circle once again to reflect on our original intentions. My heart instantly sang, “I love me, I love all of me!”
My mind thought the intention was for my new love, but my soul was still falling deeper in love with itself. I loved the way my body was free to express and move on the dance floor. With such respect and honoring from the 40+ individuals in the room. In previous ecstatic dance situations, I would be energetically analyzing the environment, cautious of energy vampires. And here, I was safe to be free, no judgement could be found and so I could fully play. I had the ideal playmate. Magnetized at times to move together in unison, and other times to dance wild, free, and solo. And so, I also fell in love with South Florida, finding this not a rare occurrence in other events as well, the acceptance of individuality and expression, which is not found in Montana. I experienced love, a deepening of love all around. Not just for my boyfriend, but for it all.
The more I continue to say yes to self-love, the more love I receive externally. Yes, from my boyfriend who loves pulling me in close to him in very public displays of affection to abundance flowing in from new unexpected clients and students, to my community who are excited to have me home for a while. As I show up more fully for myself, I can also show up more fully for others. I began teaching in person workshops in Bozeman, MT after taking years off to focus on my online development. It’s so amazing to connect to my Bozeman spiritual community once again.
All I can say is, I love me and I love my life!
The self-healing journey was so worth it! And it can be for you too!
If you are reading this, and you are not completely in-love with yourself and you can recognize that in your relationships, it’s time for a 21 Day Radical Self Love Journey!
I am offering 5 spots for “Say YES to Radical Self Love”! This includes 3x 90 minute coaching sessions to develop your personalized self-love strategy with regular accountability throughout the 21 days for just $888!
This is the best Valentine’s Day present you can give to yourself!
Say YES to Self-Love today!
Ecstatically Yours,
Christine Renee
Moon Rising Visionary
Are you ready to dive deeply into self love, working with me over 21 days to engage with powerful spiritual techniques, coaching tools, energy work, and more to reclaim your power, recognize your worth, and love yourself in all the ways you haven’t yet?
I am offering 5 spots for “Say YES to Radical Self Love”! This includes 3x 90 minute coaching sessions to develop your personalized self-love strategy with regular accountability throughout the 21 days for just $888!
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